Mellenkahlee
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Monday, August 22, 2005
Had To Open That Big Mouth, Eh?... Zort from URL @ 12:25 PM There are about a million things that I'm thinking, but i don't think that I should say any of them. All I really know for sure is I hate everything. Everything and everyone. She had to go and acknowledge that theres a problem. Why can't anyone just supress feelings like they should? It wouldnt've been so bad if I'd just been told from the begining. Told that there isn't anything there anymore. I didn't want to make things akward. All I wanted was to make the most of the little time I had. And it's not like I tried to stare, I was tired and seriously was doubting weather or not she was really there, or if I was dreaming again. Everyone knows that I adore Anberlin. Like, ONE OF MY FAVORITE BANDS. But when I SAY that I would rather just STAY NEAR someone else rather than see them preform, I would rather not have that person tell me to go away. I only wanted to be close to them, and they told me over and over again to go away. Ok, now I'm letting it out. First thing wrong, Pretending I wasn't talking when I was. Second thing, Turning so I couldnt even hug them. Third thing, Going out of the way to talk to complete strangers rather than be near me. Fourth, Telling me to go away, and see my band when I OBVIOUSLY want to stay. Fifth, Telling me to go mosh when I DONT LIKE TO MOSH, just so that they can watch Relient K without me bothering them. Why do I keep saying "THEM" anyway? I mean Jenise. Jenise was a jerk. It's not exactly like I get to see her everyday, and it's definatly not like I was going to see her again anytime soon. Well, it's not like I'd want to anymore anyway. Don't talk to me, ANYONE. Let me be. I always have been better off alone. I'm a loner, it's what I do best. All I really know for sure is I hate everything. Everything and everyone. ::!~ Trying to Smile ~!::
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