Mellenkahlee
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Take red pills... Zort from URL @ 1:56 PM Hokay, suh, hers thi deel. I em a beeg stoopud luser hoo hass nobudy to tulk to, and dose nut tri herd enuff. Wow, I haven't slept well in five days. This has caused my eyesight to blur, my head to ache, my feet to kill me, and my back to break. Well not literaly but you know what I mean. I spend these night sitting in my bed and wondering what will happen. Wondering if my life will turn out the way it does in my dreams, or if it will turn out the way everything always does... crappy. I lie in bed feeling things I've never felt before, and guessing what they mean. I stare at the ceiling and cry, wishing for everything to be allright. Though nothing is ever allright. It's not anyone elses buisiness to know these things, but I say them aloud. I take red pills, and feel loss. I miss a dose, and feel anger. I stop taking them all together and try to slit my throat. But this isn't the way it's suposed to be. It's suposed to be me and my friends, to the very end together. It's suposed to be nebraska in october. It's suposed to be blue green and grey, all at once. But it's NOT. It never will be. It's me and myself to the end. Red orange and black... Jeez I'm emo. ::!~ Trying to Smile ~!::
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Things will be alright, Gods got a bigger plan for you than you coulkd ever imagine for yourself.
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Who knows? Maybe Nebraska in October might happen. <3 Dancing Al Capone # posted by
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