Mellenkahlee
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Thursday, May 15, 2003
Zort from URL @ 8:38 AM The worst feeling in the world I don't get why people are always so exited and happy, I mean, what crawled up their butt and shocked their appendix? I for one have only ever felt TRULY happy a few times in my life, and it isn't all it's crackedup to be. I can go on living even though my lifes a living hell, so why can't you? I mean goodness... It reminds me of the time Mark told Suzy he loved her, how he went crazy on the inside and never recovered. He kept talking about how Suzy never appreciated her, and how if he could he'd give her his entire life, every second. He lost his mind and was found laying on the bedroom floor... He had cut his own heart out. dont ask me how. They found him with a bunch of tools and kitchen utensils laying around him all bloodied and in his hands. All this because Suzy wasn't in love with him. Not that she didnt love him, but she wasnt IN love with him. Mark wrote a note... something about how he wished he could turn back time to make her love him. The girl was engaged to a man who could give her everything, except his love. for yes he cared, and meant the world to her, He never truly loved her either. This story is true, aye I mean no falsity in it. You know, I feel the same way sometimes. lost and abandond, but not by who you might think not that person that pops into your head when you read this. But you. you who read this now have been a shelter in the storm, and the hurricane itself. however I wouldn't take it back for the world, nay neither would I go back to relive the "fond" times. I enjoy this pain. It is my face, It is my curse, it is my life, my shelter, my truth, my lie, my friend, and my tormentor. And you who say you do not know, have given it to me. Damn you, And thank you. Leaders of mine agony.
Zort from URL @ 8:30 AM The worst feeling in the world I don't get why people are always so exited and happy, I mean, what crawled up their butt and shocked their appendix? I for one have only ever felt TRULY happy a few times in my life, and it isn't all it's crackedup to be. I can go on living even though my lifes a living hell, so why can't you? I mean goodness... It reminds me of the time Mark told Suzy he loved her, how he went crazy on the inside and never recovered. He kept talking about how Suzy never appreciated her, and how if he could he'd give her his entire life, every second. He lost his mind and was found laying on the bedroom floor... He had cut his own heart out. dont ask me how. They found him with a bunch of tools and kitchen utensils laying around him all bloodied and in his hands. All this because Suzy wasn't in love with him. Not that she didnt love him, but she wasnt IN love with him. Mark wrote a note... something about how he wished he could turn back time to make her love him. The girl was engaged to a man who could give her everything, except his love. for yes he cared, and meant the world to her, He never truly loved her either. This story is true, aye I mean no falsity in it. You know, I feel the same way sometimes. lost and abandond, but not by who you might think not that person that pops into your head when you read this. But you. you who read this now have been a shelter in the storm, and the hurricane itself. however I wouldn't take it back for the world, nay neither would I go back to relive the "fond" times. I enjoy this pain. It is my face, It is my curse, it is my life, my shelter, my truth, my lie, my friend, and my tormentor. And you who say you do not know, have given it to me. Damn you, And thank you. Leaders of mine agony.
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